Made it to the milestone

Today I hit 16 weeks. The scary milestone that's been looming over my head for over 5 years. And so far, so good. I'm here. Baby is doing well. Things are great. Gotta make it through the rest of the week and I'll be feeling so much better about things. I'm upbeat and positive, but in the back of my mind there's still the scary thoughts. I know that bad things could happen in the later weeks and months. But for me, I just needed to make it through to this point. Then things will be smooth sailing.

Tomorrow's another ultrasound. Last chance to see the baby's sex until the end of March when I go for the big 20-wk ultrasound. Hopefully I won't have to wait an entire month to find out what this munchkin is. I'm still pretty darned convinced that its a girl. Having dreams about her all the time. Will be shocked if there's a boy in there. To be honest, I'll probably be a little upset, but just for a minute. Then I'll be rejoicing in the thought of having another son. I'll try to update the blog tomorrow with the results of the ultrasound. Praying for good open leg vibes!

Dreams are coming more and more frequently. Last night I dreamt I was nursing a little dark haired baby girl. I've had a few nursing dreams. Hoping that I'll be successful in bf-ing this baby. Would be thrilled to have a little dark haired girl with brown eyes. It'll probably be bald like Riley and I were for the first year or so, though. Praying that the baby doesn't have red hair, which runs rampant on my side of the family. Red hair is okay, not my favorite, but okay on a girl. I HATE it on boys. I'm silly that way.

14 Weeks 6 days

Well tomorrow I hit 15 weeks in this pregnancy. Had an appointment yesterday, which is one of the reasons I never came back to the board yesterday. My appt was at 2pm. We left the house at 1, got there at about 1:30. Any other time if I get there early, they move me right on in. Oh no, not this time. It was Jason, Austin and I. Riley was supposed to come but she got invited to go sledding with a friend and decided that playing in the snow was much more exciting than seeing her baby brother or sister on an ultrasound. So what time do they FINALLY call us back to the exam room? Wanna take a guess? It was a little bit after THREE! So we go in the exam room, they take my BP, weigh me (I gained 5 lbs since my last appt). Then they stop the regular prenatal appt and take me to the U/S room. Baby shows up on the screen and looks awesome. The baby was literally laying on its head with its legs bent over it, like we froze a somersault mid-turn. We asked if the tech could see the sex. She did, but said it was just a bit too early to make any accurate determination. Said it could be a girl with swollen genitalia, or a boy that just hadn't fully descended. Umm, yeah, okay. So its either a boy or a girl. Yeah, I could have told her that! LOL. Though I'm sure I saw a "hamburger bun". I know its a girl, they just don't know it yet! The tech also turned the machine to 3D/4D so we got to see the baby even clearer. So freakin' cool. The baby is still thinking its Rocky -- constantly has its hands up around its face protecting it and then punching out. Too cute.

As far as the pregnancy is going, I feel great. Just tired. No morning sickness whatsoever. I'm eating all the time. Can't get enough food. I'm not sleeping well though. I wake up every 2 hours on the dot throughout the night. That'll be great when the baby's here, but I've still got a long time to go before I need to wake up so often. The drs said I could take Tylenol PM so that's what I'm gonna be doing to get a full nights sleep. I haven't had any more bleeding so that's been a real blessing. We're almost at the point when we lost Ian and things are looking a thousand times better than they did with Ian's pregnancy, and Riley's for that matter. I'm very positive that things will turn out perfect with this little one and that by the end of July, or beginning of August I'll have a baby in my arms again. I have another ultrasound scheduled for March 1st just as a "reassurance thing" since I'll be the same gestation then as I was when Ian passed away. Maybe next week we'll get a better peek at the baby's sex. Gosh I hope so!

On the job front... well I got the call on Valentine's Day. They offered me the position and I begin training on March 5. I haven't told them about the pregnancy yet, but I'm gonna try to make an appointment to talk with my manager before I begin. My drs office is only open M-F from 8am-4:30. I work 8:30-5. Don't know how I'm gonna be able to squeeze in my prenatal visits since they told us that we can't miss any of our training. YIKES! So I'm a bit freaked out about all of this. I'm hoping that they'll be able to work with me on all of this. We really need this job.

Later on I'll post the pictures from the ultrasound. I also need to go back and fill in the updates from the past 2 1/2 weeks or so. I've been so lazy!

4D Ultrasound

Technology is so cool! On Monday, February 5 I had a regular u/s scheduled. Halfway through the tech switched it over to 4D. It was so freakin' awesome. The baby kept his/her hands up near its face like it was boxing. Every once in a while it'd stretch its arm so it really looked like it was throwing punches. It was wiggling all around and then at one point we saw it totally flip around from being on its back to its belly. It scrunched its arms and legs underneath its body and just its tiny-heiney was sticking out. It was so cute! I have another u/s scheduled for the 19th. Hopefuly then we'll get a peek at its sex.

Here's a few of the 4D pictures. I wish I had a scanner. It'd be so much better. The top two pictures show the baby from above. You can see the hands up near its face. The last picture is more of a side profile and shows the legs very clearly. Doesn't it look like the baby is praying in the second photo??

12 Weeks

I turned 12 weeks yesterday. I made it. Trimester 1 down, 2 more to go. Woohoo. I feel great! I haven't had any morning sickness and have had only a few waves of nausea here and there. I'm so fortunate and I know it. I'm still tired all the time, but that'll get better over the next couple of weeks, I'm sure.

Last night, Jason and I and my father-in-law went out to dinner at the Meritage (where I work). We were celebrating Jason's thirtieth birthday which was Monday. The restaurant is considered "fine dining" so its not exactly appropriate to walk in in sweats which I feel most comfortable wearing these days! So I went through my SIL's maternity clothes that she gave me and found a cute black pinstriped pants that weren't too big on me and a nice black maternity top. The clothes are still a bit big, but sooo comfortable. Yesterday wearing the outfit, you could definetly see that I was pregnant.

This morning after my shower, I again grabbed a pair of maternity pants to put on. I'm sure in a few months I'll be sick and tired of that maternity wear, but at this point, I'm excited to be able to wear it. More than that, its just so much more comfortable than my regular pants which are too tight around the waist and hips.

I have my next ultrasound scheduled for Monday. Can't wait to see the baby again. Oh earlier this week I had my first baby dream. Dreamt about the sex -- it was a girl. We'll see if I'm right in a few weeks....